my tinnitus is worsening. especially upsetting is it happened after sitting along at a relatively low-volume karaoke for two hours — now my right ear has worsened. i had grown accustomed to how it was the last decade or so since i had sat in an orchestra, then played some electrical instruments with various people, then had sat around on bad fucking conference talks with obnoxious speakers.

now in this one fucking moment of weakness i join a karaoke and it seems okay then i wake up next day hearing such an awful loud pitched screeching constantly in my ear.

i am literally dissociating and losing track in conversations because of this: i have been everywhere in my answers.

i am so fucking hard of thinking now. it’s like a constant distraction from living and thinking and relaxing. please send help